how its done...

our mother showed us how its done...how to live a life of love, kindness,and example...believe me i will be the first to stand before heavenly father and our older brother jesus and tell them of all the wonderful things she did for me and our family....she made us who we are today...without her we would not know of our heavenly fathers plan...she took us to church every sunday...i can only imagine with how much a pain we kids were...for her to have said...well maybe not today...did she NO! Standing by our side always..always encuraging us to make right choices..but letting us prove ourselves...the world will never be the same for me...my best friend is gone!!! She has see me through my worst times...i sure hope its clear sailing form now on...ha ha..one thing about MOMS you only have one...they love you unconditionaly! No matter what you do they will be the first to stand up for you..THATS YOU MOM! as the older i get the more i know all we leave is LOVE...you left me with a lifetimes worth in a short time...how i wish i could talk to you face to face when good and bad things happen in my life..and for you to hold my kids in you arms and teach them the things you taught me and they see you light that radiated from you sole...i will finish your house you designed for me..but will cry that you wont be by my side when its finished to walk with me in it and see your face...oooh what a crime...i still cant believe your gone...looking into your face as you sat on your bed after you passed..like you were sleeping..realizing the breath was gone and you truely have made the leap..is still hard for me to wrap my head around...i know my son orion is there to hold you in his arms just as you held his lifeless body in your arms and sang him his song you made for him ORION! I LOVE YOU! YES I DO! SCOOBY DOOBY DOO! Tears streaming down your face...Now theres tears again as he holds you and sings you a song...happy tears..hes waited for you and you finally arrived...take care of him MOM...i wish i could turn back the clock and i could crawl up into your lap again as you have told me i always wanted to do when i was little...my heart hurts and i have dull pain..i know i will see you again...thanks for letting me stay at your house while we are building OUR house...sorry for being a pain...thanks for watching tv with me...YOUR MY HERO! LOVE YOU MOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) rock on taterhead! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU...times eternity!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! love alwaysyour little boy shane....