I'm currently sitting by Tamra's bedside at her home. She is asleep now. Since last nights post a few things have happened. Last night about 9pm Tamra awoke and wanted to sit up and talk. While she was awake we offered her some water and she wanted some. I wasn't a lot but more than she has had in a while. She also had a few grapes along with a couple of spoon fulls of mashed potato's and gravy that the relief society had brought by. While she was chatting with her she had some juice and she asked about what was going on in the world. Unfortunately since we have spent the last week in the hospital with her we really didn't have much of an answer for her.

She was up for quite a while and would occasionally ask "why am i still here?" We didn't really have much of a answer to that question either other than maybe she still needed to do something here on earth. She was quite lucid for a while but then as she gets tired she slips into a state where she doesn't make much sense. We got her back down in bed and she drifted off to sleep.

Bart, Shane, Jamie and myself spent the next hour or two talking in the front room about our childhood and the things we used to do with Mom, Dad, Grandma Juretich and Grandpa Juretich. All and all it was just nice to remember all the small things we did with them and each other growing up. As Bart has said many times..."Maybe this is why Mom is where she is right now. Just to bring us all back together." Intended or not, it has.

Tamra slept soundly through the night and spent much of the morning talking with Bart about current events and reading notes left for her. Just so you know. The messages you are leaving ARE being relayed to her whenever possible. She just doesn't have the strength to reply to them herself. She always says after reading one to her..."oh, that's so nice of them ."

When i arrived this morning the nurses were here checking on her and i guess since she had been sitting up for so long it caused her great pain when they tried to get her back down. The nurses really had to give her a great deal of painkiller because of her state. During this episode Tamra wanted the picture of Jesus she had on her dresser put next to her so she could look at it while she prayed for relief. It's such a hard thing to watch her in pain like she was and we hope she doesn't have to endure much more.

Misty then took Jack to a doctors appointment that they had scheduled. Since moms diagnosis Misty has been really looking after my dads needs since this was Tamra's job up until recently. I know it's hard for her for many different reasons but i want her to know that she is doing an amazing job and that she needs to remember to take time out for herself and her own family.

For now we hope Tamra just sleeps. It's when she seems to be most at peace.

I love you Mom....Sparkle, sparkle, sparkle, meow, meow, meow.